Going ‘Ome Late Friday

“A storm is brewing in financial markets, as prices disconnect from fundamentals.” That’s one headline from Bloomberg that appeared on my Twitter timeline this morning. It got me thinking, why do so many of us fail to see the problems until they are on top of us? Over the last year I’ve wanted to learn and understand a lot more about economic matters. Politics I found to be too divisive. Economics however is much more hard hitting and factual. Of course with hindsight, it’s quite simple to see how things go from good to bad. Boom to Bust. Take 2008, to me it’s pretty obvious that when house prices rise as fast as they did, there is clearly a bubble, that in time will correct. And of course it did. But how come so few saw it coming?

As always, trends and cycles are universal. Whether it be economics, business, sport, even life in general. We have good periods, times when life is good. But as night follows day they give way to short, and sometimes long periods of pain and suffering. It’s seemingly unavoidable. I just played with Alex Levy. In 2014 he had an incredible year. He said to me his life changed as he earned a lot of money and his reputation grew. But this year he’s had a hand injury, he’s split up with his girlfriend (which was very tough for him) and his grandfather is really quite ill. I hope he doesn’t mind me using him as an example of how peoples lives and careers ebb and flow, ostensibly without different input or action.

This has fascinated me for ages. I never imagined life when I was young to be as tricky as it is. I don’t use the word ‘hard’, because for me, life isn’t hard, it’s fantastic relative to almost everyone else. But maintaining balance in ones life is like walking a tightrope. And when you reach a point in your life where you feel settled, you invariably lose sight of what enabled this in the first place. This is when it’s easy to enter a downtrend!

Honestly, I think I reached this point sometime last year. Life for me was great. I paid off my mortgage, ate out in Giraffe 5 times a week and never thought twice about the cost of petrol or business class flights. Although I didn’t think I was being lazy or unthoughtful at the time, compared to the way I was from 2010 – 2014, I probably was. And this year so far has been a struggle. If I viewed myself the way I’d look at the economy, I would soon realise that I’m in a recession! My job is to make sure it doesn’t become a depression. My golf has been heading backwards for around a year, and it took me 9 months to realise it before making a structural change (changing my coach). And now I’m in the period of starting a few things up again and making a couple of necessary, albeit difficult changes.

The difference this time for me is that I don’t know what the future looks like. Over the past few years when I struggled a little, I did the smart thing of just heading back to the basics. I tried to do this in May, and I wrote in a blog that I felt I was turning a corner. But that corner never came. That’s why I changed coach, because all of a sudden what I saw as the fundamentals weren’t working for me. That signalled to me that I had a structural issue. Now I’m working with a new coach and I don’t know exactly what to expect. This is providing me with some sleepless nights and anxieties. I’m ok with that, that’s life. We all fear for our futures when there is uncertainty. And so at the moment I am relying a little more on hope than I’d prefer. I’m not a big believer in faith and hope, just logic and reason. I’m strangely also seeking more praise and attention from Jamie than I ever had in the past, I can only put this down to a slight insecurity as my confidence has waned somewhat.

Does all of this make me weak or in need of help? No. Turning sleepless nights into dreamy ones is what life and careers are about.

In the past I’ve said I don’t have goals. Goals are what can stop people from falling behind because they should have a link between outcome and intrinsic drive. The problem with me is, I wouldn’t retain the drive or motivation from any goals I could set because I know intrinsically they have no meaning. If and when I were to die, I wouldn’t want my children to remember me as the winner of the Bob Hope Classic. My motivation in the past has come from struggles and the knowledge that I don’t want to go through that experience again. So as you can imagine right now I am motivated. To use another “Big Short” quote in fact, “I’m jacked to the tits”. I just need to use this wisely.

Anyway, I’m approaching Geneva Airport now on the train. First Class of course. Paid for. Imagine what I’ll be writing if I miss my next 3 cuts……

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10 Responses to Going ‘Ome Late Friday

  1. Shaun says:

    As good as ever Eddie. However, what is it you want your children to remember you as?

  2. Jon b says:

    You have got to have the Monday mornings and experience the pitfalls to truly appreciate the odd Friday night exhilaration. Not many go through life without ebbs and flows , keep up the hard work and endeavour and the talent you possess will filter through when you least expect it .

  3. LoadsofBirdies&Pars says:

    My old school’s motto is “Certa bonum certamen” -fight the good fight. Eddie you have to put your thoughts into a book. Your blog is reflective gold and utterly brilliant. Please keep them comin’ and best of luck (sincerely) for the future. Le Golf National Sept 2019 has a nice ring to it for you !

  4. Andy Dutton says:

    Having a tough time with a family illness at the moment. I prescribe Perspective every time.
    You’ll be fine, Young’un.

  5. Simon says:

    Cracking stuff this

  6. Yes life (golf tournaments) ondulate between bogeys and pars sometimes doubles and eagles…. The trick is to be able to end our rounds under par (ondulation control) ….. Wish next time you are more successfull in my home town…. A new coach = Faith and Hope > http://www.everyzonecounts.com

  7. As we keep reminding our son who is looking to like you play golf on tour, success never happens in a straight line. You are where you are meant to be, enjoy the ride, life is not a practise run. Good luck Eddie x

  8. Willie Dunlop says:

    Great update, have waited for a few weeks for your latest blog and it did not dissapoint. Your time will come, just relax a bit more and enjoy your talent.
    FYI, I am the Scottish guy that followed you a bit at Phoenix Gold, black Mizuno cap, I live out here and glad you love the milk shakes. I witnessed your 4 birdies in a row first hand on Day 3. I was also there on the Sunday, shame the wheels fell off a bit, but it happens to the best.
    Stay chilled.

  9. Sylvie LN says:

    Just happened to cross your way in Crans last friday, I was happy to see you play with Alex, it appears to me you are someway alike, very well made heads, and therefore sure to reach your goals, even if these change as life goe on. Wish you the very best

  10. Hi Eddie
    I very much enjoy the insight you give.
    I Have started my own golf blog and would love to ask you a couple of questions.
    Would this be possible?
    Kind Regards,
    Ben
    https://schoolboygolfer.wordpress.com

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